Two Years and Counting


11 days past IUI update
February 21, 2008, 11:30 am
Filed under: Uncategorized

It’s been 11 days since my second IUI, 10 days since I ovulated. I’ve felt twinges of crampiness off and on since last Thursday night. On our way to a wonderful Valentine’s dinner, I felt the first tiny twinge. (You all probably know what I mean when I say “first tiny twinge”—I think people dealing with infertility are hyper aware of every twinge they feel in their body.) It wasn’t the usual feeling of cramps that I tend to get about a week before my period starts, and it was only 3 days after ovulation, so it was way too early for them. I tried to just push them out of my mind. Over the weekend and the first part of this week, I’ve been feeling more tiny twinges at random times, but still not the real cramps I usually get. Today though, I feel cramps that are a little more pronounced. I’m fully expecting to get my period this weekend. I have a pregnancy test (I guess this is what’s referred to as a beta) scheduled for Monday, but I’ll obviously cancel it if I start this weekend.

I’ve noticed certain times this week when I’ve felt extra tired. I fell asleep on the couch last night (on Matt’s comfy shoulder) at about 8:15 and was out like a light. There have been other times when I’ve felt extra tired. So I’m wondering, if and when I start my period this weekend, what will all that tiredness have been from? If I’m not pregnant, is the tiredness just mental? Is it just because I’m in this hyper aware state of noticing every little thing about my body, even things that aren’t even there? I think so much of this whole thing is a mental game. Imagining symptoms that aren’t there. Worrying about the tiniest of details that in the big picture probably don’t matter all that much. It can really make you a little crazy. When I get to that point, I try to remind myself of “If only you had obeyed my commands (ie, trusted me) your peace would have been like a river.” That’s what I seek—peace like a river.

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On another note, back to that wonderful Valentine’s dinner. Matt and I don’t regularly go out to dinner at nice places where we get dressed up, so it’s always a treat when we do. We spent those couple of hours luxuriating in amazing food and talking and talking. It’s so nice to get out of the house and have a really nice dinner and the type of conversation that we wouldn’t normally have over chicken and asparagus at our kitchen table. We always have great conversation, but there’s something about getting dressed up and going somewhere special that pulls us into even greater talks. And the tulips he sent to my office are still blooming and gorgeous!

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Tulips are my absolute favorite. And the 2ww symptom obsession is killer isn’t it!

Comment by Jennifer

Isn’t it funny how going out helps us to have deeper conversations with our spouses? For us, I think we just get distracted too easily at home (dishes need to be done, maybe I’ll just check e-mail, etc.).

I hope that all your symptoms are indeed signs of pregnancy! Just to let you know, though, the trigger shot is made of the pregnancy hormone HCG – which unfortunately means that your body might mimic pregnancy symptoms whether you’re pregnant or not. I don’t mean to be a downer at all, but I remember that information was helpful to me. Again, here’s hoping your symptoms aren’t psychosomatic or trigger-shot-induced!

Comment by andrea_jennine

I have my fingers crossed and am wishing you peace like a river and nine months of it!!

Comment by Steph

I, too, seek a peaceful way to deal with this. It can be so stressful to be hyperaware of every sensation, all the time. It actually helps me when I am busy with work so that I don’t obsess all the time.

I’m thinking POSITIVE thoughts for you.

Comment by sarah23




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